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13 October 2010


Anna worked hard to adjust to the new life. It was a different country. Sure she had been here before, but one cannot equate a holiday with a home. The two are different on all levels.

Anna missed her space and comfort zone and was struggling to build one.. She knew deep down that she needed to find the resources and means to create everything new. She missed all her friends – especially the people that had supported her through all the terrible parts of her life. Sure, technology means that your loved ones are never too far away from you – but it wasn’t the same.

Her sole aim in everyday was to wake up and take one further step in the adjusting process.

In six weeks, she had somewhat adjusted, when she received an email from a familiar looking address. GUY. What could he possible want? What kind of a sick joke was destiny playing on her?

Yes it was Guy and he wanted “his” Anna back. He needed her in his life as much as she needed air to survive. Anna was angry. The situation was all wrong. The circumstances were all wrong.

Anna always believed in giving someone a chance to redeem themself – and decided to give the love of her life the chance to make her happy. Regardless the circumstances, there was a reason that Guy was back in her life and she needed to give fate and destiny a chance. She had loved this man since she had laid eyes on him at the age of 19. And now, 8years later – he wanted her. They were both single and it was ideal – although they were in different countries. This wasn’t a rebound for her – this was the real thing. This was the Almighty telling her that they belonged together. They were soul mates. They were meant to be together…

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11 September 2010


That was the day that marked the move. A day that would be forever etched in Anna’s heart as the start of a brand new life, a brand new chapter in a new country. She didn’t have any plans, except live in the moment. However, things are not always as they seem…

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Moving and Changing…


Desite things not working out with Seth, Anna was happy that she had put Zach behind her. And with that, she put Guy behind her as well. Knowing he was married, she respected him enough to let him go. She just stopped replying to his messages and called it a day. She owed herself the respect, if she wanted to be respected. A recently divorced woman had no right to interfere in a married man’s life.

Anna concentrated on being mother and father to little ButterFly. If Zach had no wish to be part of the little girl’s life, Anna wanted to. She had already lost one baby, she wasn’t going to neglect the precious one that was alive. Within her means, Anna gave ButterFly everything – love, time, toys, endless gifts – all the things that money could buy as well as all the things that love could provide.

Haddie and Derek filled Anna’s life in the hope to close the gap in ButterFly’s life that Zach had left wide open, an act that Anna treasured with all her life. She owed Haddie and Zach her life for helping her raise this little girl.

The months passed. The heartache also passed. Anna relied on her work and studies to blank out the pain of the divorce as well as constant prayer to the Almighty. The end of the tunnel was nearing and Anna could see the light – a light that was filling her life and replacing the pain of the divorce. This light was her inner strength. Constantly Anna told herself that if the Almighty brings you through it, He will help you through it. Anna didn’t ever realise how much of strength she truly had. She had been through so much – loss of a baby, divorce, single parenthood.

Beyond this, she knew that something was going to bring her some happiness. And that’s when the Almighty decided to save the best for last. Derek decided to move to Mozambique for business and in this, he included Anna and ButterFly. This was just what Anna needed. Away from Johannesburg. A chance to start over, away from all the memories – to be close to her family – cousins, aunts, uncles. The isolation from family had taken its count in the bad occasions of her life and this is exactly what she needed.

With a smile on her face, Anna resigned and started packing for her new life..

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A new day has come


Well.. Regardless of the outcome, Anna was happy. Disappointed but happy. She was free from this loveless farce that she had constantly tried to call a marriage. No regrets though. With Zach, she had two beautiful little girls and whatever bad patches she had went through were the Almighty’s way of adding points of interest in the map of her life.

Anna dusted herself off and decided that she needed to go on. Regardless of all the crap that she had been through with Zach and his family. Anna said to herself that with each passing day she had to slowly forgive herself for the failure that her marriage had been. She unfortunately blamed herself – however it does take two to tango. Yes, she could have tried harder. But then again, so could have Zach.

Zach’s final words to Anna were “if you don’t want to be my wife, then I want nothing to do with ButterFly either.” He had absolutely no interest in her welfare from this day forth and even denied that ButterFly was even his. He claimed that Anna had been having an affair with Guy since day one and that Guy was ButterFly’s real father – he had somehow acquired proof from Guy regarding this.

Anna was not impressed. She had long forgotten Guy and these accusations were not fair. Anna summoned the courage and tried her best to get hold of Guy. She knew that he had gotten married and she had no right to contact him, but Zach had left her with no options. She got hold of guy with just one question “has my ex husband been in touch with you for any reason whatsoever?”

Just that question alone was enough for Anna and Guy to start their friendship from where they had left off. This wasn’t fair to Anna or Guy – but somehow there was a cosmic magnetic pull. Guy was in Cape Town, Anna in Johannesburg. Guy was married, Anna was going through a bad divorce. Everything spelt out the word wrong.

Luckily in this short space of time, Anna had another distraction. She became friends with someone from her past. Seth. Recently divorced. He showered ButterFly with endless love, attention and affection. He was the perfect solution to Anna’s confused heart. Time spent with him made her forget Zach’s nastiness and how much she yearned to be with Guy – especially now that they were talking once again.

Though things with Seth did not work out, Anna was grateful for one thing, Seth had managed to help Anna forget Zach. And in forgetting Zach, she turned over a new chapter of her life. She started from scratch – Anna and ButterFly. The Dream Team.

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